It's not just a date. The calendar-date name cannot contain the significance of the event. As I've looked down at my phone today and seen those words on a screen, it shook me, and I had to remember that it is, indeed, also just today's date.
It seems so hard to take anything seriously these days. I just read a quote from a friend's FB page that pointed out that there are, in fact, things worth going to war for, and that believing nothing was worth war was worse than war itself. I tend to agree.
I don't think I took motherhood seriously enough before I embarked on it. If I had, I would have trained harder for it. I really just didn't know what it took. One thing the past week has made me realize is that it is enough to be a mom. I am not being lazy if I don't attempt to do a bunch of other things. It's a relief.
Of course, I do do other things, and so do the women I study. They do things in the name of motherhood, though, whereas I think a lot of women do other things in the name of not motherhood.
I don't know where ther rhetoric ends and the reality begins. My reality is saying that taking care of little kiddoes is a challenge that requires one's primary resources. I am not quite sure how to put this any better. I have simply realized that for me, to do it right, right now, requires a large, and legitimate, commitment. I think I am finally learning to take it seriously.
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